I had an idea to invite some of my whale brothers to experience the Toad medicine. Their hearts have already been touch by whale magic and I was keen to know if they would feel that similar magic and whale connection with the toad as I have. I wanted to play the whale song recording I made while I was in a toad ceremony 8 months ago. I felt the whales were aware of me in ceremony at the time and where singing and passing on coded information from their world. The recording was about 20 minutes long, which I looped a few times and played it back on a speaker from my computer.
Im writing this the day after the ceremony and after spending time in nature, a long hot bath and now while looking a footage of the event, which all helps with maximum recall.
I hit play on the whale recording and lit up the magic sacrament. Before even exhaling completely the white light tunnel appeared and and I could feel the ego dissolving as I surrendered my control. My body leaned forward and I coughed and spat as the release continued where aspects of myself that were not in alignment with this Divine force began to shed and be expelled.
Resistance was futile, so I simply allowed whatever was happening to happen. Although I did not have body awareness at this point or even who ‘I’ was, I, could feel karmic stories of relationships I’ve had through lifetimes playing themselves out. I felt Julian Assange and our karmic weaving. I could feel the major relationships in my life and what we were here to share with each other and where there were energy blockages between us. I could see sexual dynamics between partners current and in the past. I danced and fell through this bardic state, seeing, growling, spitting and releasing where I was not in alignment.
At around the 3 minute mark I crouched back up on my knees facing the sun. The awareness of the whales came in, yet not as whale song. It was like the sound vibration of the whales was being transmitted from deep outer space and Toad had allowed me to tune into that frequency and to feel the depth of what it really was. As I held the frequency that the toad reveals, occasionally opening my eyes a little to let the sun in, I could feel an alchemic dance occurring between me, the Toads the Whales and the Sun, that was indescribably pure, ancient and timeless. I could sense an invitation to me and humanity from the whale nation to join them in this depth of connection to all that is.
Even though the whale song I was listening to, was recorded around 8 months before, time as we know it did not exist in this experience. I feel that the whales exist and play in this timeless dimension and when they sang this song to me during my ceremony 8 months ago they knew I was going to be doing this ceremony now and I would understanding what they were transferring to me. I totally surrendered into this transmission.
I could feel the Sun feeling me, feeling it. We had a loop going. It was like the Sun had a personality and we were old friends reuniting. I could feel the ancient connection some humans have had with the Sun throughout history. There was joy and love in the connection. I felt the ancientness of the ritual and could feel the harmony being created in the astral by this ceremony and this depth of connection. An image and feeling of Danny, a departed brother, came to me and I could feel him doing work in this realm.
At about 7 minutes I stared becoming aware of my body and I felt to get to my feet to anchor and ground some of this energy into the Earth plane. As I stood in full surrender and connection, facing and embracing the sun, the sun felt like it was scanning me, like an MRI machine looking for energy blockages. The image of Octavio came into my field and I felt the dance we have had though out lifetimes and how we are connecting again in this life time, to heal energy that was not in alignment with this Divine force. I also felt one of the Toad collectors that Id met in Mexico and could see where we have danced in previous lifetimes and how we also had work and clearing to do now in this life. Interestingly this collector and I are on a panel together at WBAC about fair trade toad. I felt this misalignment as a pain or blockage in my lower stomach area. I pushed my fingers deep into that point to help it release. I coughed, spat and purged out our past stories in the physical and on the astral which seemed to allow for the healing to now occur in my current 3 D reality and in the near future. I had a vision, that I held, of Octavio resolving his shadow, coming back into alignment and making a public apology at WBAC for allowing his shadow to effect the people he worked on with the medicine.
With that energy block removed I reconnected with the sun again, which helped bring my energy field back into alignment. The whales continued to guide and hold me as I began my return journey into having a body and an ego in this 3 D world. Birds sang to me and the surrounding trees held me in their deep presence. I felt deep deep gratitude for the experience and to existence. Gracias to the Toads the Whales and the Sun.