The Toad, the Whale and the Sun
Pure 5 MeO DMT
Recently I had my first experience with snorting the pure molecule, 5 MeO DMT. I have had an interest in doing this for some time to explore its usability. I have usually received the most learning during the transition period, coming back from the other side and grounding the experiences into this reality. So when I heard the transition after snorting was much longer I wanted in.
By coincidence, ha ha, the day it lined up, just happened to be on Australia Day, or Invasion day, as many in Australia call it. Part of my intention was to feel the energy that has occurred on this land over the last 250 years in relationship to the original people and to see if any healing could occur. As I said to my friend as I was coming out, you have to be carful what you ask for.
I started with 4 mg up each nostril. After a few minutes I could feel the tingling of 5 entering my energy field. Once on the edge I knew I had to go for the deep dive so at the 9 minute mark I gave the signal for another round of 2x 4mg. Within minutes the 5 sensation gained momentum considerably. I could feel energy pulsing through me yet because of its relatively slow activation, compared to smoking, I seemed to be able to work with this strong building energy. My senses to the surrounding sound and environment became more attuned.
The sun called for my attention and I turned and started to gaze into it. There was just enough cloud cover to keep a focus directly into the intense white light ball of the sun. I could feel that the more I opened and surrendered to the suns energy the more the suns higher frequencies were able to enter me. My moving arms and hands became like antennas to the suns energy coming in and moving through me like an electric current. The suns energy seemed to move through my own energy system, aligning and purifying me. My mind and ego took the back seat. I surrendered completely.
I started to feel some of the pain that the original people of this land had felt over the last 250 years and are continuing to feel, to, and on, this day. I felt the injustices, the murders, the taking of the children, the loss of land and culture. I wept deeply for their pain. I felt as much as any white person could and I deeply said my apologies on behalf of the privilege white people who caused this suffering and continue to this day, to not recognise the heritage this land was foundered on. Won by the barrel of a gun from the first day.
I know it sounds crazy yet I feel some healing occurred between my white privileged ancestors through to todays Australians and the ancestors of this land, including todays original people. I dont understand the process completely, yet it feels like when one enters this timeless zone with humility, all timelines can become one and when there is recognition and deep feeling and apology for an event from the past, this ripples through the timelines and can help heal the present and future in our collective consciousness.
Feeling into the oppressive energy that invaded this land, that energy felt like the same patriarchal energy that has oppressed women over the centuries and brought about great imbalance between the masculine and the feminine. I again dropped into feeling pain, this time the feminine pain and deeply apologised for what had been done on behalf of the masculine. I could feel my desire to be in absolute truth in all my interactions with the feminine in the future to assist in the healing between the masculine and the feminine. I could sense that this is the great imbalance where most of the world suffering stems from.
The transition period went for about an hour and was phenomenal. Not just a glow for an hour but deep downloads of what my actions were to be, my connection with the trees, the earth, the sun, the ancestors and the feminine. I was called to do strong arrestable actions for Julian Assange and our marine cousins. I felt an urgency and the call to action on many levels where there was no room to be controlled by fear. Actions needed to be based in centredness and love.
The whole experience from first snort to when I was able to sit down and look my sitter in the eyes and share, was around one and a half incredible hours. In this long transition I was able to bring in and down onto this plane what I needed to do. Often after Toad there is a lightning flash, then a wondering what was that all about. So if you want an extended journey, transition and download time, snorting does that. Yet you can only do that with pure 5 MeO, not toad, as toad has many toxins that only get removed when it is burnt. Make sure you have a good experienced and trained facilitator.
Yopo is another way to snort 5 and have a longer experience that has been used by shamans of the amazon for millennia. I think Yopo uses Cebil seeds and has a lot of 5-ho-dmt (bufutenine) but also enough 5-methoxy for a full journey along with traces of NN dmt. I hear its a bit painful and harsh to snort and you need quite a lot.