Session with a master sound healer
Most ceremonies I have done, have been simply with the natural background sounds so when a holder of the toad was visiting who was also a master sound healer I felt I had to experience the combination.
I usually start standing up facing the sun as a way of connecting to the elements and grounding the experience yet I agreed to the guidance to start the journey laying down, surrendering from the beginning.
I am writing this testimonial the day after the ceremony. Memory is aided by watching a video of the event which I find helps me to remember events on the other side and to get the most out of the experience.
I said my prayers and focused an intention in my mind. I took a large inhale of the magic smoke and just let go.
The facilitator used various instruments throughout the 45 min journey starting with the soft drumming on a medicine drum. That drifted into sounds from a shruti box accompanied by high vibrational Sanskrit chanting. This high vibrational chanting seemed to be guiding and holding me safely and securely in this toad space. It was a bit like riding a flying carpet down the cosmic big dipper ride with a seat belt on so you wouldn’t fly off and hurt yourself. I felt held and supported in this sound bath to let go further into trust. The facilitator intuitively could feel where I was at and would choose an instrument that assisted my journey deeper into the layers of my past karmic story to allow healing to occur. Never did the music feel intrusive.
I continued to surrender and let go down this cosmic slippery dip with focused sound vibration as my lubricant. In this space I felt a huge responsibility to face darkness in all its forms. At around 9 minutes in I had an urge to stand like a warrior and ground all this energy into myself and the earth. I was gently encouraged to lay back down and just receive and surrender. So I did.
The responsibility to face the darkness on a personal, global and shamanic level felt like a huge burden I have been carrying. I felt other Toad facilitators and collectors in this zone and felt that we have had lives before and we are coming back now to resolve issues, bring this medicine in smoothly and assist humanities journey towards the light. I could feel the challenge to stay in complete truth and fearlessness within this process.
Instruments changed to crystal bowls, flute, singing and then chimes as I navigated through past lives, karmic stories and personal contracts. These softer instruments seemed to allow me to access the softer more vulnerable child within. As I continued to surrender and let go, I could feel the weight of my burden slowly lifting from my shoulders and heart. Screams and tears flowed as I acknowledge the weight this child and person has been carrying through lifetimes. The heavy burden seemed to transform to a softer form of responsibility.
I felt the spirit of recently departed brothers working from this other side. I felt them deeply connected to nature and oceanic energy.
I felt the separation some humans have with the dolphins, whales and nature. I felt the dolphins being herded into the killing cove in Japan. I could see the empty souls of the killers and the separation that allowed that to happen. I could feel the humans caught I n this separation energy ignorantly supporting this cetacean killing and slavery by going to Sea world and other dolphinariums. I cried my deep felt apologies into this toad zone and to the dolphins and whales, trusting this would help heal the schism, the separation and assist bringing humans back into balance with nature.
About 40 mins in and still very much in the zone I was anointed with a fragrant oil and feathered down. I laid there quietly listening to the sounds of the birds chanting their merry song to me. I felt how animal communication is possible as I felt a clear channel of life force flowing unhindered through me. No mind, just pure heart connection to all that is.
I staggered outside and laid on the earth to ground the experience while the facilitator closed the direction and thanked all the energies for being present. I then walked through the rainforest and had an invigorating and grounding swim in the creek. I sat on a mossy rock tuned into my breath closed my eyes and felt deeply rooted and connected to all of existence. This is such a precious experience, do yourself a favour, research your facilitator. Experience, skill, intuition and being a clear channel matters. Gracias gracias gracias ???????❤️.